Thursday, July 9, 2009

grace like rain

The rain here is intense. One minute it is hot and sunny then suddenly....monsoon! It brings in this cool air, and the sound of it crashing is just so sweet. It is washing it all away...

It reminds me of God's grace. His good, undeserved, unending grace that He pours down on us with love.
"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are- yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:15-16

Steve Fee's "Grace Will Be My Song" continually filled my head today with its anthem so true.

Jesus Jesus Jesus
You ransomed one like me
Jesus Jesus Jesus
Your blood, my liberty
And now my shame is gone
And grace will be my song

Jesus Jesus Jesus
Lover of the weak
Jesus Jesus Jesus
With strength to carry me
And now my shame is gone
And grace will be my song

Glory Glory Glory
To the one who saved my soul
Glory Glory Glory
To the Everlasting Lord
Glory Glory Glory
To the King who sits enthroned
Our God


What a wonderful truth! My prayer is for these women and children to be able to sing and rejoice one day:

"and now my shame is gone...and grace will be my song"

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Urgent prayer

Hey guys,
I know you are already praying for what is going on over here, but I have a specific request. Two girls who have already become very dear to us have some serious stuff going on, and we need such prayer for them. One situation is specifically being handled within the next few days. The stuff you are about to read is pretty intense, so if you do not want to read, it is understandable.
Thank you again for all the prayers you already have put forth! The Lord hears and He answers beautifully.
Because He Chose the Nails, Janette

This is straight from Bonita and Roy's prayer letter:
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Beginnings brushes with trafficking victims regularly. While we work with women in the sex trade, it is inexorably linked to human trafficking. The following is a tale of my experience as a trafficker!

For two years we have enjoyed a young woman (age 12 at arrival – now 14) in our Beginnings family. We’ll call her Pon. She is delightful. She loves Jesus. She is playful. She is creative. And she is illegal.

She was abandoned by her mother at birth and raised by her grandmother who died just before her journey to Bangkok. While we have spent hours searching the internet for her possible homeland and village, it has been to no avail. Her recollections mostly resemble Burma, but we are not certain. She has no ID card, no mother, no father, no siblings, no nationality, no homeland.

Because she is at such high risk of being “caught” and then of being trafficked, we have been vigorously seeking a way to protect her with legal papers. (Both the military and Thai police are notoriously corrupt and have been accused in multiple trafficking cases.)

A friend from Laos who has helped others gain residency said she could help. After questions, prayers, and tears, we sent Pon with our friend on the twelve hour bus ride to Laos. The bus was stopped eight times by police who boarded looking for illegals. Pon hid in the bathroom but was discovered at the last stop. Because she was heading “home” to Laos, she was allowed to leave – not on the bus but on the back of three different motorcycles driven by three different men through the jungle -- alone. God protected her.

After two days of meeting with various officials, it was determined that Pon would NOT be able to obtain papers there – unless we wanted to pay off the officials for their corrupt demand of about $5000.

Now the most difficult dilemma: How do we get her BACK?

After hours of heavy silence, prayer and tears, our plan was to rent a van and driver and travel all night to Ubon (at the Laos border) where we would pick up Pon and, prayerfully, “traffick” her back to Beginnings.

Before Ubon we were stopped twice by police. We all had papers so we were allowed to advance. We counted at least 15 police stops on the other side of the road – we would have to pass through AFTER we had Pon.

We slept in the van for a few hours and then met a tearful, frightened Pon and friend. We determined we would take the northern route, assuming there might be fewer stops. Before the northern turnoff we were stopped twice. The officers looked in each of the van windows, asked multiple questions and even identified our “sleeping” Pon as a foreigner --- and then told us to have a good trip. God protected us!

We were not exempt from stops even on the northern route. We approached the first turnout where the police had stopped a bus and two vans. We were waved on. God protected us!

We came to the next turnout where the bus had been unloaded and passengers were holding up their ID cards. We were waved on. God protected us!

At the next turnout, four police had stopped a couple vans and were busy with the inspection. Two other police were talking, looked at us but did not seem to see us. We drove on. God protected us!

Lunch, back roads and hours later we were approaching the place where the northern route connects with the southern route about 100 kilometers outside of Bangkok. We knew this would be the most difficult. In anticipation, we stopped at a large vegetable stand. There we pondered, purchased, prayed and finally returned to the van. Within minutes an enormous cloud gathered above and it rained torrentially. The clouds seemed extraordinarily full of water. We passed at least four police stops – saw their cones and flags – but never saw them. God protected us. Even the winds and waves obey Him. What a mighty God we serve!!
We reached Bangkok without incident. When pulling off the freeway onto our street, Pon talked for the first time in twelve hours. She was home! We were home!! --- So young, so vulnerable, so frightened, she experienced the protective hand of God in her life. It is a lesson none of us will soon forget.

******* Another of our residents cannot boast the same story. Len was also trafficked from Laos. She, however, was not loved by her traffickers. She was made to wait in the jungle for many hours. While there she was gang-raped by several men and told that if she did not cooperate they would leave her in the jungle to die. When the refrigerated truck came by for the pick up, the back door swung open and it was packed with women and young children. There was no room. They were told to make room. The largest of the women got in first and the lighter sat on their shoulders for the entire twelve hour trip to Bangkok. They were then sold to various labor and sex establishments. Len was sold for sex. We found her in one of the bars we often visit. Pray for Len. The same God who protected Pon, loves Len and has brought her to this place of safety and hope.

Pray for Len, for Pon and for our continued struggle with finances. You are pivotal to this ministry and we love you!!
Blessings, Roy and Bonita

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Just a few snapshots

Beginnings.
For those of you who thought that NYC was the city that never sleeps...
It is not a rare occasion to see these homeless dogs all over Bangkok...
There are also many methods of transportation.
New experiences... eating bugs.
Fish spa!
Some of the girls enjoying some sour mango
Sweet Lek and I
Precious BeBe.
Ann bought BeBe a pancake maker...the girls approved!
The darkness is everywhere.
Yet, we have hope in our midst...Heaven.


Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Minimalistic.

These past couple of days have been interesting, tough, and lovely all at the same time. We sat down yesterday with Bonita to talk about what to expect and how to react to the outreach ministry. Her details were intense. That is all I feel needs to be shared on the matter because of the knowledge that you all already have of these girls. They are exploited. Plain and simple.
Upon receiving this information, it was time to put these years of longing to be here, and times of training into action. Stepping into the bars for the first time.
During my walk to the bars with one of the outreach-able girls from Beginnings, I was not sure what to expect. I did not want to "lose face," I did not want to shame these girls or make them feel bad, I did not want to react...I just wanted to show love. I prayed the entire time. I have been praying for months now about this specific initial reaction to being there, and still felt as though I was not sure of how I would respond. I just had to trust. We met Bonita, and entered.
God is so very faithful to prayer! I thank you all for your commitment to pray for us, yet again. He hears and answers. With His strength, He gave the ability to have conversations with some of the women, to have an inviting face, and to actually smile and laugh with them. It was a blessing far beyond the requests in prayer. God is so incredible and amazing. To Him all credit is due always and forever. How His beauty can shine through any and every situation blows me away, and my heart rejoices at His power and majesty.
**"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26
The first conversation I had was with a women who radiated with happiness, yet was so eager to be cared about. She loved conversing with us and was so sweet. I was not sure of how much English she knew right off the bat, but before I knew it, we were discussing our ages, nationality, family, and jobs.
I ask her how long she has worked there specifically- she says, "8 months." I ask if she liked her job- she says, "it's so-so...not really." I ask her why... She said some things that capture all of this in such a true, yet dark and somehow hopeful light...
"It is nothing. The men...no one cares about heart. All they want is you. They want that. To do things. They do not care about your heart. It is not for love (as she motions her hand to heart and then to mine)..no heart. They are drunk and they crazy (she imitates) They just want look...pretty face...body...but no heart."
This is real. The hope is that can we pray and love with no limitations, and ultimately hope that they would let the Lord fill that void. I pray that you do not take this information and use it as you will, but to just pray over it and these women and children involved. There are things I will only share with the girls I am here with, and some things I may only take to the Lord. On whether to share any of this or not, I have prayed so much...and I think you need to know this depth. Let it cause you to pray all the more, to be aware, and to love all you come into contact with.

This is war
at its best
on its finest day.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

The Girls

The past 2 days we have gotten to have a lot of time with the girls. Since we arrived more at a weekend time, as well as that Bonita, Roy, and Ann (the house mom) just went out of town, it has been less school and what not and more hang out time.

It is crazy to feel how much love I have for these girls already. They are so very precious, and so incredibly sweet. You would never imagine the lives they have had to face. They do not harbor bitterness; they laugh and love with such ease and genuineness. There is nothing perverse about them, and they have this purity shine through. I am so glad that they know Jesus.

We have heard a few stories, learned some have children, and it all blows my mind. They are still little girls themselves. I am learning a faith that I have never seen before. All the laughs we have shared and their joy in life and in learning new things, it is a lesson to all.
I have been learning so much and just enjoying more of a relaxed kind of life. Lynds and I had a conversation about this yesterday. There is less "on-the-go" and "how do we fill the time here?", and more reading, sewing, enjoying in Thailand. I have found conviction in my own life in always needing to be doing something, instead of enjoying my Creator and the things we have labeled as "simpler." I will take to heart that He alone is holy, holy, holy... the whole earth is filled with His glory. Isaiah 6:3. Take it in..
On Friday night, we made an American meal for the girls, including cupcakes. Be Be, Ann's daughter, helped Courtney and I bake them. She is adorable and loves these girls, at the age of 10. She began leading us in song and was thrilled when we would sing along. After we sang "In the Jungle" she moved on to the worship song "You Are My All in All." What a truth!
"Seeking You as a precious jewel, Lord to give up I'd be a fool. You are my All in All."

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Finally here

Hello all,
Greetings from Bangkok, Thailand! It has been quite the "day." We left D.C. at 11 a.m. on Wednesday arrived in Detroit at 12:30 p.m., left for Tokyo at 2 something, arrived there at 4 p.m. Thursday, and finally arrived in Thailand at midnight on Friday.
It has been quite a trip, but we are so glad to be here! I pray that all is well with you and where you are and what you are doing.
Upon stepping onto Bangkok grounds, I was not sure what to expect but have been asking the Lord to keep me steady and solid. Tiffany, from Lynchburg, along with Courtney, are also here at Beginnings and have already told us of some things to expect, learn, look out for, etc. It is so nice to see familiar faces. However, nothing can truly prepare eyes for seeing the evil over here.
On our way to Beginnings tonight, we drove down this strip that is like a line of darkness. If any of you have seen the movie Taken, there is a scene where there are some girls on the street and men pulling up in cars to take them for the night...that gives a slight comparison. It was already 1:30 a.m. and terribly dark, there were far more girls, and of younger ages, and it was right in front of us. The same hurt I knew we would feel was felt, but I looked out and thought of my sister, my mom, my cousin, my best friend...if I someday have a daughter...they were all there, because to someone that is who they are.
Some using their charm and body language, others looked miserable, others seemed sad that they weren't being invited in to these vehicles... all-in-all, there was such a heaviness and darkness that surrounded us, yet I know in my heart God is here.
As BlueTree wrote while in a brothel in Bangkok, Thailand, "For greater things have yet to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city." He truly is the Light in this darkness, the Hope to the hopeless, and the Peace to the restless. There is no one like our God.

These verses made my night brighter, as I hope they will to you.
Psalm 16:8,9 says, "I have set the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure."

Thursday, June 18, 2009

To Start Off...

Dearest friends and family, 
In exactly 5 days from today, Lyndsey, Martha and I will be flying 23 hours total to Bangkok, Thailand to live there for one month. My heart is filled with anticipation, great joy, and prayers as I think of arriving at Beginnings. I think of how I will meet these girls who have already found freedom and are living there with Bonita and Roy, the wonderful founders and couple who run Beginnings, and I think of how happy I will be to see some who have found their hope. Then I also think of what I will see on the streets upon arriving, and the 1.3 million women and children who have not found freedom, and my heart is heavy still. I do not think that this is a bad thing, however. This heaviness and awareness is what will keep me going as I am there, and when I return. 
We are pushed to move and help because the Lord has always helped us, no matter what. I am called to love because He first loved me. I am called to serve because He humbled Himself first. I care for those who I have not met yet because He knows each and every one of us by name. Your prayers and support mean the world to me and I cannot wait to share His work with all of you as I am over there and when I return. Praying for you all as well!  
Because He Chose the Nails,
Janette